Cherish your life....and you are blessed

Today on a bus,

I saw a girl with golden hair

and wished I was as fair

When suddenly she rose to leave,

I saw her hobble down the aisle

She had one leg and wore a crutch

But as she passed, she smiled

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine

I have 2 legs, the world is mine

I stopped to buy some candy

The lad who sold it had such charm

I talked with him, he seemed so glad

If I were late, it'd do no harm

And as I left, he said to me,

"I thank you, you've been so kind

It's nice to talk with folks like you

You see," he said, "I'm blind."

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine

I have 2 eyes, the world is mine

Later while walking down the street,

I saw a child with eyes of blue

He stood and watched the others play

He did not know what to do

I stopped a moment and then I said,

"Why don't you join the others, dear?"

He looked ahead without a word

And then I knew, he couldn't hear

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine

I have 2 ears, the world is mine

With feet to take me where I'd go

With eyes to see the sunset's glow

With ears to hear what I'd know

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine

I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine

This is a poem written by someone. It is indeed a very meaningful poem. It reminded me that I have so much in my life to be thankful for, that I should feel grateful for what I have, anytime, anywhere. I learned that being contented for life is the basic element that everyone should have in their mind.

Cherish what you have in your life~

If you love somebody…..

If you love somebody
Try to make him happy

If you love somebody
Go get him before u regret

If you love somebody
Always stand by his side

If you love somebody
You should set him free
Let him be what he wants to be

And…

If you love someone
Wish him much happiness
With the one he loves

so i got my hair permed~!

yea...finally i got my hair curled. it has been 8 years since the last time i perm my hair ( and i didnt look good that time, haha!).

so now, with this new technology-digital perm-is what they named, i guess the result is good, but just that some people said curly hair is not so suitable for me, as i look more mature with that....sigh~

aiya...too bad cannot see how i look with my new hair style here--'cos i'm too stupid in uploading photos on this blog...:p

but no matter what others say, i'll just have to stick to my freshly-permed curly hair for this moment!

Thank you...

'....these wounds won't seem to heal
these pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase...'
-- [ my immortal ],by evanescence

Yes, I have to admit that I still cannot let go something. That 'something'-or- 'someone', is still wandering in my mind. It's still there. I have tried hard to tell myself to forget about that and I thought I have made it. But I was wrong. It seems like it cannot be wiped away from my memory.

Thank you my dear friend (u should know who u are), for being so concern about me. I know u do not hope to see me suffer. I know you are trying your best to save me from the dark side. In fact, I'm very glad and proud to have such a friend like u to stand by my side and give support that I needed most. Don't be surprise that u are the only friend,yes, the ONE and the ONLY friend who sees me through. You are aware about my feelings, my thinking, my emotions; even though I tried to hide them away. There's always no chance for me to pretend in front of you.

Don't worry, friend, I'll try my very best to overcome and recover.just spare me some time>_<

But once again, thank you ....
[written on August 25, 2004 @ 10:14pm]

useless me....

oh man....why am i so useless?
i thought i can forget you..
i thought i have erased all the data about u in my little mind
but why issit your smiles are still vivid in my memory
why i still long for your touch
even though i know that's immpossible

[written on August 17, 2004 @ 10:59 pm]

it's ME~!

I'm juz an ordinary girl
with no hope for LOVE
dissapointed by LOVE
confused by LOVE
fooled by LOVE
lost in LOVE
lack of LOVE
totally blur of LOVE
doesnt really know wat LOVE is
have no confident in LOVE
and yet...
fall in LOVE easily
but surely not in LOVE

[wirtten on August 17, 2004 @ 12:00 am]

where is the love?

HAVE u ever been in love?wat's the taste of being in love?some ppl say it's good to be in love....it's sweet,happy,excited,.....nar...i'm not good at describing them...but to me, i think dat it's juz a fleeting happiness, which usually doesnt last long...

Well...in the past 8 months, i have been a very moody person,feeling down every day and nite,tears flow from my eyes almost every dark and cold nite-when i'm all alone...but y?

IT went like this....

i have gone through 2 relationships(one after another of course)for the past 8 months,which have made my life miserable then.I have nothing much to say about the first relationship i had with dat guy, cos both of us had done wrong from the very beginning.It was a mistake.

The second relationship really hurts me.It only lasted for....how long? a month? a week? NO! juz only 3 days, if i'm not mistaken....haha..unbelievable issit?

That guy happened to be one of my long-lost contact frens.I still have the vivid recollections of our only 2 meeting up sessions in my mind.It was so sweet.He revealed his feelings to me on our second meet up.I felt dat i was so lucky at dat time bcos there's someone so perfect like him to love me.So i accepted his love, without hesitation.But who knows....the relationship between us didnt last long.Dont ask me why...

'i believe that fate has brought us here
and we should be together
but we are not'

'i may seem alright and smile when u leave
but my smiles are just a front'

this particular lyrics from the song'i try', by macy gray,best describe my feelings after all dat happened on me.

I wish not to suffer any more pain from the 'miscarriage' of the 2 relationships....i juz want to know..... where is the love dat i'm looking for?

[written on August 16, 2004 @ 11:57 pm]

false start...

TIME passes real fast..and now we have come to the second half of the year 2004...and let me remind you dat now is already august,still got about 4 more months before the year 2004 ends.

Well...the first half year was never good to me..many things---bad things i should mention here, seemed to b on my way all the time.It started off with a not-so-harmony chinese new year reunion dinner with family.Then on my 20th birthday, that was 6th of february, i got scolded by my mom for dono wat reason...then the next day there was a big quarrel between me, my mom n my aunt cos of some misunderstanding...and my mom slapped me on my face for the reason dat i've been 'brain washed' by somebody till dat i disobey her...ooooh....dat really hurts me..

i juz dono y my mom have dat thought in her mind.I'm already a 20-year old girl, i'm mature enough to have my own thinking, i'm not a young little girl who is easy for people to brainwash me.Her slap on my face,although didnt cause pain to the surface, really broke my heart and left a bad image of her in my mind...at the same time,I really cant accept the fact dat my mom actually has been showing partiality towards my sister for all these years....

[written on August 14, 2004 @ 1:42 am]

Welcome October!

Oh well….so we are already here - the 10th month of the year. Wonder how will my life be in this month..? Will it be an interesting one, or a dull one? Nar…. I really have no idea about it….just to wish that everything will be under control and that everyday will be a good day to me….hehe. It is a simple wish indeed, but in the real life…everything seems so difficult, sigh!

So, let me think….is there any special events or important dates to remember in this month? hmmm…let’s see…apart from birthdays of a few of my friends….what else? Oh yea, I have a wedding dinner to attend on the 23rd of October, *not to forget*.

Guess there’s nothing much special in October. Anyway, welcome to the month of October~