where is the love?

HAVE u ever been in love?wat's the taste of being in love?some ppl say it's good to be in love....it's sweet,happy,excited,.....nar...i'm not good at describing them...but to me, i think dat it's juz a fleeting happiness, which usually doesnt last long...

Well...in the past 8 months, i have been a very moody person,feeling down every day and nite,tears flow from my eyes almost every dark and cold nite-when i'm all alone...but y?

IT went like this....

i have gone through 2 relationships(one after another of course)for the past 8 months,which have made my life miserable then.I have nothing much to say about the first relationship i had with dat guy, cos both of us had done wrong from the very beginning.It was a mistake.

The second relationship really hurts me.It only lasted for....how long? a month? a week? NO! juz only 3 days, if i'm not mistaken....haha..unbelievable issit?

That guy happened to be one of my long-lost contact frens.I still have the vivid recollections of our only 2 meeting up sessions in my mind.It was so sweet.He revealed his feelings to me on our second meet up.I felt dat i was so lucky at dat time bcos there's someone so perfect like him to love me.So i accepted his love, without hesitation.But who knows....the relationship between us didnt last long.Dont ask me why...

'i believe that fate has brought us here
and we should be together
but we are not'

'i may seem alright and smile when u leave
but my smiles are just a front'

this particular lyrics from the song'i try', by macy gray,best describe my feelings after all dat happened on me.

I wish not to suffer any more pain from the 'miscarriage' of the 2 relationships....i juz want to know..... where is the love dat i'm looking for?

[written on August 16, 2004 @ 11:57 pm]